A scruffy old teddy sits by my bedside at home. Not a good-looking bear. But loved. As a child, I looked at him and saw my lovely friend, my beautiful bear. As an adult I look with the same eyes, the same affection.
Bartimaeus is the blind beggar, mentioned in Mark's gospel. At the time of the gospel, such disability was viewed as punishment from God. People avoided Bartimaues in the street in case something unclean rubbed off on them. Bartimaeus was one of life's scruffy people.
Not so in Jesus's eyes. He sees Bartimaeus, the man and addresses him with respect and love. And though the story doesn't mention it, when Bartimaues sight is restored, the first thing he must surely see is Jesus gazing at him, loving him to his very core.
Be aware of yourself sitting in that same gaze now. Jesus looking at you, seeing into your very core, understanding you.
Be aware also that in Jesus's loving gaze, healing happens. His gaze is changing you. He sees what is beautiful in you and his gaze is making you beautiful.
The next time you pray, the next time you go into a church, the next time you walk up the street....remember that God is gazing at you with love. And his gaze is making you beautiful.
Sometimes it is easier to "feel" God's gaze if you can feel something tangible. One idea is to sit in the sunshine and feel the sun's warmth on your face. Bask (with sun screen on, of course!) Know that this is a reminder of the God in whose gaze you are being transformed.