In your prayer, you've been open with God, spoken courageously and from the heart. And yet you still feel alone perhaps abandoned in prayer. The familiar words hold no comfort. You are going through the motions. Maybe the only thing you feel is your desire for God, that deep ache to have some sense of his presence. Perhaps you feel that you are losing your faith.
It can be very painful if prayer feels empty. It's hard not to treat God like a human and to assume that his feeling absent means you've done something to put him into a bad mood, and that now he is rejecting or is punishing you.
Not so. You are in new territory in relationship with God. Your feelings are not the best indicator of his presence with you. You are asked to trust that, in spite of how it feels, he is there. He would not leave you on your own. And you are asked to wait, in the emptiness, in the silence, and let God touch and transform you in your hidden depths. All you can do is choose to turn up for prayer. The rest is in God's hands. You are in God's hands.
All is well. Simply be. Breathe. In the darkness. In the pain. Cling to the words from Romans 8..nothing can separate me from God's love..
A book to help you to rest a little easier in this veery painful place is the classic When the Well Runs Dry: Prayer beyond the beginnings by Thomas Green
It's also important that you don't make this part of the journey on your own. It would be of great support to you to work with a spiritual director and so know that you are not losing your faith but entering into a different experience of it.
Finding God in prayer may be very difficult at such times and you are more likely to be consoled by the sense of God's presence and action in the people and places around you that give you life, that share God's kindness, beauty, peace, joy and perseverance with you.
...and try to psalmists for company. It's little consolation but they often shared this experience of dry prayer....like a dry and weaty desert, longing for, aching for God